36 Weeks Pregnant – Heavily pregnant and slightly in denial

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No one’s more surprised than I that we’re this far along already. In fact, the baby’s dropped lots and Braxton Hicks have started but I’m still prone to forgetting altogether that I’m pregnant. Apart from a little pelvic pain (another osteopathy treatment booked in this week – it’s been magic so far), a few mood swings and a tired period in the mid-afternoons, I feel amazingly well. Not like last time when I was falling apart by now. I’m even pencilling things into my calendar for when I’m 41 weeks, which makes me wonder if there’s a touch of denial!

Yet things are getting underway. I’ve packed my hospital bag just in case and I’m gathering things for the home birth. We have a midwife visit tomorrow morning for a home assessment. I can’t remember what it involves but I didn’t bother to get Laurence to take time off work for it this time as it didn’t seem that noteworthy.

I’ve decided not to discuss my birth plan as the chances are whichever midwife I see won’t be the one there at the birth and I’d rather not be upset by any difference of opinion. It’s not masses different from my plan last time anyway and the community midwives were generally cool about what was on it back then.

I’m re-reading The Hypnobirthing Bookby Katharine Graves and Ina May’s Guide to Childbirth. We continue to practise KG hypnobirthing techniques. I’m also listening to my birth playlist daily and allowing myself to daydream about a beautiful, secluded river we explored in Grande Riviere, in Trinidad last year. I can’t help but see lots of tropical flowers opening, hummingbirds and butterflies kissing them, as I allow myself to float in the fresh water. As it turns out, the music makes Talitha sleepy and she’s started napping again for the first time in months! I’m also burning frankincense, on our doula’s suggestion. It’s incredibly calming and uplifting.

I’m almost done washing all the baby’s clothes and nappies. The Moby Wrap is ready for action as is the Boppy breastfeeding pillow. The baby’s car seat is already plugged into the car (easiest to store it there) and the freezer is being filled with meals as I cook extra. We’ve moved a chest of drawers for the baby’s things into our bedroom.

The initial plan was for the baby and I to sleep in the master bedroom, for Talitha to sleep in her own bedroom and for Laurence to have the guest room with Talitha joining him when she wants to. But this week a nightmare sent Talitha into our room for a few nights and we realised we’d like to try all being together. So, instead, we’re mentally moving around the furniture in our room, trying to figure out how we can best make it work.

Life with Talitha carries on with days spent at the zoo, city farm and other favourite haunts, interspersed with days playing and tidying at home. Strangers keep remarking that it’s good of me to keep getting out. I take this to mean that I am huge, even though I still imagine myself with a waistline until I walk past a mirror! In fact, I’m looking at the pictures in this post and can’t believe my body looks like that, even though I can feel the reason kicking around inside me day and night.

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26 Comments

  1. January 27, 2014 / 7:51 am

    I’m the same…. I don’t think I am looking too bit until I catch sight of myself in the mirror. I am however really starting to feel the weight, especially when I get up in the morning.

    Like you I am a bit in denial too that there will be a new baby here soon!

    • January 29, 2014 / 11:49 pm

      You know what? When I first read your comment two days ago, I thought: “Actually, I’m not really feeling the weight.” In that time alone things have changed and I’m feeling like it may well end up being a long few weeks!

    • January 29, 2014 / 11:50 pm

      Thank you, lovely friend. I really want to see you after this baby is here!

  2. January 27, 2014 / 12:35 pm

    You look beautiful <3 Makes me miss being pregnant!
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    • January 29, 2014 / 11:50 pm

      Thank you. I can’t fathom anyone missing it, though! I’m sure I’ll eat those words in years to come!

  3. January 27, 2014 / 1:12 pm

    you look amazing and I second what Polly said, it makes me miss pregnancy! I’m so excited for you! You reading Ina May brings memories of Wilf’s pregnancy back, I remember telling my mum ‘so they are just like rushes yer?’ and she was like…’well I think they are a bit more intense than just a rush..’ haha! x
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    • January 29, 2014 / 11:52 pm

      Haha, yeah! We’re talking about surges, for the same reason they use rushes in Spiritual Midwifery. It’s the whole idea of energy moving through your body to go up, to open and to go down. I’m actually really looking forward to the birth!

  4. January 27, 2014 / 2:29 pm

    You look really amazing! Love the photos with T, too. Think it’s so lovely that you’ll all be sleeping together – it’s so nice to have that support in the middle of the night (even if the other person is alseep, it always made me feel a bit less alone) If that makes sense…x

    • January 29, 2014 / 11:53 pm

      I have to admit I really didn’t find it that supportive having Laurence in the bed last time. I would uncharitably glare over at him and want to kick him for not being awake with me! It got a lot better once I was able to feed lying down!

  5. January 27, 2014 / 2:47 pm

    Exciting times. Gorgeous bump by the way. x

  6. January 27, 2014 / 4:34 pm

    Lovely photos. I like your idea not to discuss things with the home assessment midwife. The community midwives always seem way more relaxed about everything than the usual midwives, or they did to me anyway! x
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    • January 29, 2014 / 11:55 pm

      That’s definitely what I found too. I actually did end up discussing things with the home assessment midwife though as she was cooler than I’d expected. She wasn’t thrown by anything! We even discussed home made cord ties and placenta encapsulation!

  7. January 27, 2014 / 4:36 pm

    You are glowing and beautiful. Must the age and development Angelo is now having nightmares, some nights its 4 in the bed. As you do you roll with the bunches so to speak :0)

    I luv your bump styling! You clearly have things under control I look forward to hearing more about this journey.

    • January 29, 2014 / 11:56 pm

      The nightmare thing certainly snuck up on me. I have to say, I do love the way bump looks at this stage in pregnancy. 🙂

  8. January 27, 2014 / 5:28 pm

    Beautiful bump shots and you’re positively glowing! If we get pregnant again I would like to try hypno-birthing as I used some yoga breathing techniques with F’s birth and it definitely helped. You sound like you’re doing beautifully, I would stay in denial until the baby decides it’s ready to make an appearance x
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    • January 29, 2014 / 11:57 pm

      If you used yoga during F’s birth, you’d love hypnobirthing. I’m sure of it. Yes, I’m hoping to stay that way.

  9. January 27, 2014 / 7:23 pm

    You look amazing and it’s so exciting how near it is! We had Cherry in our bed last night after a nightmare, it took her an hour to go to sleep though as she kept trying to play with something and wriggling around! It is lovely to all wake up together though x
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    • January 29, 2014 / 11:58 pm

      Ack, it’s fine them coming in but only when they settle! Thankfully, Laurence has the magic touch with Talitha at the moment. She just melts in his arms.

  10. January 27, 2014 / 8:21 pm

    Lovely pictures, you do pregnancy well girl! Denial is good, don’t focus too much on a date, get on with life, after all it will happen either way. Best of luck for it all.
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    • January 29, 2014 / 11:58 pm

      Yes, it’s so tempting to think about the date as the time draws nearer. Trying not to!

  11. January 27, 2014 / 8:54 pm

    What beautiful photos! The last few weeks are the most exciting, I think – when everything starts to feel a bit more real!
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