Due date dream

I dreamt last night that I was rushed to hospital after an arson incident and gave birth very stressfully within an hour. I didn’t care what was done to get the baby out and was alone.

Afterwards, I didn’t care about what was done with the umbilical cord or the placenta (rich topics for discussions of the birth plan in recent times). I just wanted to get this baby on my boob.

Then I texted Laurence to tell him that he had a son – a surprise.

Nothing had turned out as expected or hoped except that our baby was safe. When I woke up, I realised that that essentially is all I care about. I just want to meet our baby and know that she is safe.

I’ve been getting hung up on my lack of control lately. I really thought for some reason or other that the creature would come early – not sure why. The due date was yesterday, so that’s not happened.

I’ve had false labour (we’re talking regular contractions with increasing intensity when I change positions or walk about, usually for hours) almost every night for the past week.

And a couple of days ago my uterus started pinching a nerve that’s sending shooting pains down one of my legs. All in all, I’ve had to accept that I’m not in charge of what my body does or when this baby comes.

But the dream reminds me that none of this ultimately matters. I don’t have to know all the whens, whats and hows.

And I don’t have to get stressed when people ask me if the baby’s come yet or whether I’ve been getting pains. If I do, I can put it down to hormones and move on, happily looking forward to putting a baby on my boob.

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9 Comments

  1. Carolin
    May 30, 2011 / 1:48 pm

    How creepy, I dreamt that we were having a boy a couple of days before giving birth. Really strange, but I guess that’s just our pregnancy nerves. I know you’ll be fine. You are so prepared that whatever happens you’ll know the best options for you and your little girlie and how do they say: Good things come to those who wait – I promise, it’s true x

    • May 31, 2011 / 8:42 am

      I know it’s odd, right? I realised that I actually didn’t mind that she was a boy. It was just really surprising. Thanks hon.

      • Carolin
        May 31, 2011 / 8:26 pm

        It really is strange but I guess we don’t care if it’s a boy or a girl in the end because all we truly want is a healthy little baby x

  2. May 30, 2011 / 2:45 pm

    Scary dream – but far less weird than some of the crazy stuff I was dreaming this time last year. One involved umpa-loompah’s, a turkey baster and a piglet. That is all I’ll share. It was wrong. On so many levels.

    • May 31, 2011 / 8:41 am

      Oddly enough I think I had the “strange” dreams in the first trimester. I dreamt that I gave birth to a dolphin. These dreams are all a little to realistic for my comfort! You should share that dream on your blog at some point though. Use it as bribery for winning the Baby category. 😉

  3. May 31, 2011 / 12:58 pm

    Oh but it’s hard though, I remember being past due date and going for acupuncture, eating pineapple, curry, trying every old wives tale I was told…sounds like you are still nicely relaxed about the whole thing. I’ve got all my fingers and toes crossed for a lovely easy labour for you xxx

    • May 31, 2011 / 4:44 pm

      Oh, don’t you mind me – I’m looking into acupuncture and I’ve got the pineapple. Curry makes no sense because I eat it all the time and everything I eat has hot pepper sauce most Brits would find lethal. But yes, I’m trying to remain reasonably relaxed.

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    June 3, 2011 / 6:31 am

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